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i cannot take it anymore!!!my grandma's getting from bad to worst.i just can't stand her nagging at me all day and everyday.who does she think she is.my grandmother so what.she human and so am i.she doesn't give a damn about my brothers and she nagging and always trying to find fault with me.always comparing me with my cousins when i am not them.whats her problem?whats my problem?is not that i dun do any housework rite.at the end of the day,i'll still finish wad im suppose to do.this is my life and im not some little kid anymore.i know what im doing.i know how to handle my life.i konw she helped this famliy alot and i thank her for that but it doesn't mean she can try to bother bout my life.she doesn't like me talking on the phone,playing the computer,watching tv, sleeping or even goin out.what exactly does she want me to do?clean the house all day.sometimes,she even ask me to do housework when im studying.i go crazy soon if this continues.i asking god to not let me think this way but im still thinking this way.MY LIFE SUCKS.
Went to blk 85 with denise after cg for dinner.talked bout stuffs and now im feeling depressed.how stupid.went for a jog and i came back feeling fine.however,my emotions started to feel depressed again.im feeling so empty.i feel so stupid.i feel so useless."God please help me".i will specially pray this four words everyday.but i still feel the same way.i noe god has plans for us but i really cannot take it.i try not to think bout this stuffs but it will just pop into my head as and when it wants.i hope i'll just forget everything when i wake up.ha.denise, dun worry bout me.i doubt i'll do anything foolish.((: i still can smile![*smiles widely!!*]
the word "STOP" indicates the end of a sentence. STOP.
hi charlene. STOP.
denise here. STOP.
thanks for listening to all my nonsense for the past two hours. STOP.
i certainly enjoyed disturbing you. STOP.
with all my nahpoh-leeon and taakki shit. STOP.
you're father's sms is so true. STOP.
i'm gonna tell the whole world. STOP.
but then again, i'll be risking my life in doing that. STOP.
go give your father a huge hug charlene. STOP.
tell him that you love him. STOP.
at least 'son of the mask' teaches you a meaningful lesson in life. STOP.
not like all those korean crap. STOP.
from,
denise. STOP.
Been feeling kinda depressed for no reason lately.i feel like dying.i just can't cope with my life anymore.i feel so sick.i just keep praying and praying but god doesn't seem to be answering my prayers. denise asked me
"if i pray whole heartedly, will god answer my prayers?".i gave her some stupid answer la.im keep asking my self why doesn't god answer my prayers oso but i can't even give my self an answer,who am i to give an answer to her.i feel so out of place.i dun even noe where should i go? ifeelsolost.
Am i really having a bad headache or am i just thinking too much? i just can't stop getting this super irritating headache's for like the pass week. the worst part is that i get it during lesson time!!panadol-doesn't work panadol EXTRA-works for a few hours.how sickening can that be.at this rate,i gonna fail cause i just absorb much. WHATS WRONG WITH ME??!! im like so WEAK!! not headache means i feel like vomitting or im giddy.how weird can that be la and the best part is that it happens EVERYDAY!! esp. during school hours.i feel like somebody's knocking my head really really hard.WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!!!sucks la.I JUST FEEL LIKE
SSSSSSCCCCCCCRRRRRRRREEEEEAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMIIIIIIINNNNNNNGGGGGGG!!!