E4L :)
My
DEARest Charlene,
Things have not been too good. Today (30 October 2006) is the FIRST TIME I'm experiencing from a minor-soon-to-be-major panic attack. I am suddenly overwhelmed by the amount of crap I have to study for. Not only for Humanities, but the pressure is definately on for my Maths and Chemistry. My Literature paper is THIS THURSDAY and I am already freaking out. I am at the mercy of my Chemistry papers because I'm dropping Physics. A and E Maths is staring at me point blank because I am expected to get an A. Geography is crying tears of desparation because I have an immense amount of content to be memorised. I am practically shaking at the thought of it. My lack of effort will certainly pull me down faster than you can say "Titanic". I am such an idiot for not studying and panicking earlier. Now I am super busy because of countless appointments I booked with my teachers, mainly for my Humanities subjects. I am feeling like.. I don't know. My heart has never experienced such heart rate in a long time. Today I think I burned more calories than I ever had in a single day. Today is the day to remember where the mighty Denise Cheong is falling mercy to her studies. Today marks the fall of my confidence and therefore, marks the mere beginning of shame and much sadness to come.
Don't worry, I love you still. All the best to you. :)
Denise Cheong
